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One could like many but would only love one.

time will heal

they say time will heal everything...
they say i'll pass this unbearable pain soon....
they say i'll forget our past when time past...
they say i'll get over you after some time...
they say time is my antidote...
maybe they're right?
or maybe they're wrong?
i might look strong....
i might look tough...
but you wont know...
that i get shaky and nervous when i see you,
that i blushed when you touch my face,
that my heart stopped beating 1 sec when you looked at me,
that i stay up late almost every night...cuz of the dreams i kept having...
that my heart hurts so much and it'd stopped hurting already...
that i've cried so much that i'm almost out of tears...
that i'd wished every night for you to be happy before i went to bed...
and yet...you'll never knew
maybe time Will heal my heart..
it Will...
but the wound on my heart WILL pop open when i see you...
thats what will never change...

Move on

It's time to move on...
I kept telling myself...
but i cant seem to walk away from the past...
stuck in it...
drowned in it..
memories flashing back and forth....
your face...your smile...
your eyes...your lips...
the look when your asleep...
your breath...your voice...
your everything...
stuck on my mind...
it's so painful to see you walk away,not looking back...
it hurts so much to see you smile so angel like,bright with your teeth shown out...
wanted to cry but i told myself that i can't...
i needed to smile out ever so happy though i'm hurt so within me...
smile brightly in front of the others...
then tear when im alone..

crushed

so crushed up in my own thought...
so crushed up in my own feelings...
I've lost so much since then...
I've lost my way,
lost my own self,
lost my feelings,
lost my heart,
lost everything that mean so much to me....
I've been useless to everything...
not myself anymore...
trying so hard to find an exit to this...
sorrow...
washed away everything...
anger and hatred....
surrounding everywhere...
but i can't....
can't hate anyone but myself...
cuz i'm the one who's not perfect...
i'm clumsy...
not knowing bout your feelings...
not knowing that your stressful...
not giving you enough time to yourself...to heal

To:BB

心粹……

已经很久没跟你联络了，
已经很久没跟你聊天了，
已经很久没直视你的眼睛了，
已经很久没和你拥抱了…没受到你的体温了…
已经过了很久…很久…可我还是想念你…思念你…怀念你…想得都心粹……
他们说我这样等待很不值得，可我还继续等待……
因为我还放不下你，舍不得你，放弃不了……
我会继续等待……因为我相信你也是一样……
我还很爱…很爱你……
我粹掉的心在等待你来复原……




To:Bb

情人节

2011年的情人节，一个人过也还算不错。。。
只需一本书，一瓶红酒，一点音乐，一个人，在睡房过就好了~
第二件难忘的事。。。是不可以公开的秘密，我自己知道就好了~><

CNY~

这个新年有点闷因为很冷清><
可是红包还是有拿到拉~我想去朋友家！！T^T
今天早上声音还便有点粗了><,