crushed

so crushed up in my own thought...
so crushed up in my own feelings...
I've lost so much since then...
I've lost my way,
lost my own self,
lost my feelings,
lost my heart,
lost everything that mean so much to me....
I've been useless to everything...
not myself anymore...
trying so hard to find an exit to this...
sorrow...
washed away everything...
anger and hatred....
surrounding everywhere...
but i can't....
can't hate anyone but myself...
cuz i'm the one who's not perfect...
i'm clumsy...
not knowing bout your feelings...
not knowing that your stressful...
not giving you enough time to yourself...to heal

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