Hope

This year Kelvin is hosting a graduation travel to KL.About 15 or more of my friends a.k.a buddies are going.Maybe we would go to the beach or not,i'm not sure.It is a 4 days 3 nights trip on December somthing,not sure of the date yet.It would be funnnnn.So...hope my dad would let me go with them and have a wonderful memory . :)

chocolate



I totally like this kind of chocolate...the seashell shaped chocolate,though its kinda a little too sweet but i still like it.just need to drink more water after eating it :)

相机

想买台专业相机...刚刚问了老师可以介绍我买什么款式的相机，她介绍了我买Canon 550D 和 canon 600D...可能会在这星期去看看:)

不舒服咯~

今天我“大姨妈”来，不错！因为下星期要出门咯！！去亲戚的婚礼！！在Johor Bahru...好远哦！！噢...离题了...来来来回来重点~~
今天自习时因该是因为压力和紧张弄得浑身不舒服吧，加上“大姨妈”...真是难以解释。当时的感觉跟我看过的一本助成长的书（我妈卖给我的）描述的感觉一样。在考试时...感觉有点更难受了...还蛮难熬的。在这种痛...很难思考...弄得我做不完数学！看一看门外的天空...有点灰了...真希望等下别下雨...结果还是下雨了！最近总是酱，一讲到就发生！还好今天提的是防水包包去学校咯~不然书就选湿透了，因为我忘了带雨伞。雨越下越大...只好用包包挡着头走出去..我的裙被淋湿了一大半！在7/11要走出“雨场”时刚好遇到一位抻着打雨伞的叔叔，他很好心的不介意麻烦帮我遮雨到摩舵店那里的避雨地...真的很谢谢他（虽然不认识）。
头发还是湿了...很冷也..下腹又痛了（经痛）its like a remix of 胃痛 and stomach flu。真的超难受的！站也站不好，坐也坐不好。想吐又吐不出，只知道很痛很痛。等巴士来...等了大概1小时！！我没说我的脸很苍白，我感觉到手很无力的在抖着，脚很沉重，头有点晕...像随时会晕倒一样。等待的当中，其他人的衣物和头发都渐渐的干了，只有我的头发和校衣还湿着...被我痛得狂冒出来的汗弄湿。 等到巴士终于来了，直接上巴士坐...疼死了。坐下来...舒服多了...和妹妹接收机和耳机听歌，and try to get some rest。睡了蛮久的...很快就到家了，下腹部不再痛了！！I FEEL SO ALIVE!!!又有活力咯！吃了块巧克力和喝了杯热可可~

new pc

Today i got a new PC!! My dad took it home with him when he came back from work today...I got surprised when he said it was for me...kinda happy...I wanna say "Thank you dad" to him :)
I think it's a Lenovo i5...is it? I don't know much about electronics to be honest xD

Nuttin' but stringz

Introdusing the group "Nuttin' but stringz"!!its a 2 men band,black men actually,with their violin~~Their songs are a mix of hip-hop with violin music...its rather cool actually..they've competed in Americas got talent 2008.And I think they won the competition cuz they are awsome~~!!
Some song I recommend are...Broken Sorrow, Winners and Thunder. nice songs~!

picz I took on 14/8/11 =)

I forgot what this nut is called already but it is tasty!! You cant smell anything by just smelling it but when you put it in your mouth and start chewing, thats when the flavour starts kicking in. The nuttyness,the silkeyness...ohh! The sweet scent!!

$tarbucks

Heyyyy!!!! I'm at Starbucks in Jusco~~(again)
I had a cup of dark mocha and a slice of blueberry cheese cake not long ago...delicious :D
N now I'm sitting on this kinda cummfy single sofa with my sis's laptop infront of me (my laptop had been crushed by my mom two day ago==)
Juz now wanted to see some movies on pps but its very lag till it cant move so I decided to update my blog~The internet is very slowwww here cant barely handle the slowness.well I'll upload some pics i took with my cam later cuz unfortunetly I forggot to bring the sub cable....silly me>.>
Its kinda borring sitting here doing notting...so i'm ma going to have a walk....pls dont let me bump in to someone i know or who knows me>.<

blood test report

So my blood test report have came out...my dad gave it to me just now when he got home from work.And he told me that the doc told him that my report is okay and i'm okay.It's a good news =]
This is the first time I've ever had a blood test,the first time to read the blood test report.At first I donno what its writing about but then i seem to know..Guess what?I'm a B' possitive~~

Blood test

Today went to doc's to have a blood test,I wanted the test myself cuz I've been getting sick very easily these days and I just wanted to test my blood and see if there's some prob with me...1st time to have a blood test..so scared><
Dang!!doc checked for my blood stream then he use this bog needle to check if my blood is really there then used another needle to get my blood...it's so painful...i cried a lil cuz it really hurts...ugh...so faceless.then he give me a little plastic container to get my urine...then he say after 5 days go back there to get the test results...Donno what I'll expect but hope I'm okay

扭到脚……

今天回家时在巴士上不小心扭到脚……痛T^T

Upd@tez

It's been too long since I've been updating my blog with new stuffz!! xD
So, I'm writing this post using school com.N its kinda boring at school cuz i just chilled down frm a fever.It totally sucks! I can't speak for a day!! A DAY!!! After coming back frm the doc's he gave me som med n stuff...discusting things= =    never ever liked it. He said I got the fever cuz my throat is infected...so...2 days outta school...all day resting n stuff...not something great to remember frm= =

登山比赛=]

        今天我校举行登山比赛咯~去爬Tekun山~~我是初中组的女生所以只要爬到半山罢了~早上在学校B cort 篮球场集合和点名~then分组上巴士去Tekun~然后就在山脚下等开跑……人多得要命啊！开跑时连走都太挤啊！之后就遇到宛谕,我们就一起走~很谢谢她一直陪我到半山，还教我爬山的技巧=]   要不是她，我可能连半山都爬不到了><   不知爬了多久，我们就到了半山，那里早有很多人了！匆匆忙忙的就机录名次了~then我们在凉亭里休息，喝水。喝完了就跟朋友拿xD 还拍了很多照片也~ 休息充足后就一起下山了~我们聊了很多很多，还拍风景照呢~和宛谕一起真的是什么话都能谈~不会无言更不会尴尬><
        我们用了大约40+分钟才抵达山脚了。一看，大多都是学校的学生，而且很多人！我们就拿今早拿到的票去换水和面包=]  膳食的委员给了我Kaya，给了宛谕豆沙的面包…互相看一看，我们交换了面包XD （因为她不吃豆沙~）呵可……拿了后就去找阴凉的位置（膳食对面的建筑物后面）享用享用~我拿手机出来，flick开就有一只针在里面。刚要拿出来，手一斜，吃到一半的面包就从袋子里掉在了地上！！！哭…我的豆沙T^T  可是朋友帮我拿另一个来 XD
         我的面包吃到要完时就一起去买西瓜，一人一个but西瓜不冷，也不甜= = 因为嘴巴太小，我吃得满嘴都是>< 吃完西瓜，我又把剩下的一点面包拿出来吃…宛谕就吓到说“你面包还没吃完啊！”呵呵……then 就去排队上巴士回校咯~在巴士上我们也聊了很多很多^^
         很开心啊~虽然爬到脚酸又痛啦~可是不错啦 =]

报到=]

报到2（香蕉男）

票

可怜~晒太阳xD

轮到我们咯~

走着去上巴士

抵达Tekun =]

在山脚（开跑地点）

好斜哦！

要抵达半山前遇到

半山的俱乐部~

第24名的脸xD (taken by宛谕)

登记的~

好舒服哦~

半山的情况

后面是斜坡！！><

好大的蚂蚁

美丽的紫花~

风景照(taken by 宛谕)

这什么？？猴子啦！

到山脚时看到的~

打针

刚从Sunway 那里的clinic 打针回来……好才他跟我打左手！不然我就残了咯！><
左手有点痛咯…可是还好啦。。希望不会有事=)

Pancake~

刚刚试做了pancake...虽然外观惨不忍睹和走形外，大致上还能吃xD瞒好吃的~要的话可以加奶油和水果吃起来才不会腻，虽然刚才有试加蜜糖吃可是还不行= ="

排球

今天正式学打排球…打到手红啊！！可是学会很多了啦but还不会开球><

Bought a new bag~~~~~~

Totally LOVE this bagggggg!!!!><

Big Mac!! xD

Yesterday ate Big Mac in jusco n then eat a plate of rice frm Old Town but can't finish the rice...hehe =P

The cokes~

Big Mac n fries =]

rice frm old town ><

父亲节！

祝各位爸爸们父亲节快乐！！=D

Sejarah讲座会

今天校方请了两位校外的sejarah科的老师--一位马来族和一位华族来我们学校演讲关于PMR考的sejarah要怎样应付。首先是马来族老师的演讲，很有趣啊~又快又友善的把整个讲座讲完了。之后就轮到华族的老师演讲，可他的演讲对我来说很闷……有一次差一点就能登入“周公online”了，可是他以讲话就把我吓醒了！因为他的声音有点走音而且我又坐靠近speaker。时间就像乌龟一样慢慢的过……差点就闷死了！又冷呢！真后悔没带外套去><

科学展~

    2011年6月17日（星期五），也就是昨天。我的学校有一个科学展，是学生（不管年级大小）举办的展览比赛。我们学生就在第五节课去参观，地点是在敬爱楼的两间化学室里举行。当然高中组的学生做的project比较有高难度挑战，有些也有点危险性但不至于会太over。我和梅一起先去第一间化学室，看到有一组（高中）是利用音波控制火候的大小*好酷哦！都是放流行英文歌曲xD*另一个是测试安全套的耐度，需要大约8-9个铜圈才会断掉也！我才知道原来安全套的成分除了有橡胶还有色素，香料也有糖也！还看到一位学姐把安全套充气然后用棉布擦拭套套然后把它放在头发上，头发就站起来了也！（是应为产生静电）还有！在一个空玻璃罐里放满米，要怎样用一根竹筷把它提起呢？？试了很多次可是还不能也！学长就示范了他的"魔法"，把竹筷插在中间，在竹筷周围的米用手压得紧紧地，够稳后就可以抓着竹筷把它提起了！接下来就是“压力”。水草剪成小段，一个小段的水草里塞入约两个回形针，塑料水罐装满水，放入水草，留一点空气然后琐上盖，压一下水罐原本浮着水草就会沉下了！紫包菜除了吃还能做什么？它能用来分辨酸碱哦！把紫包菜拿去水煮，抽出它的色素。试管放些蛋白，加入紫包菜的色素，蛋白既然变成紫蓝色！好美的颜色哦！！还有自制小喷泉和水什么了…忘了><

    另一个是什么加什么化学物煮然后拿去过滤，出来的是些黄亮晶晶粉末吧…拿来做布置很美哦！另一个是利用零食如番薯片测试它拥有多少油在里面，吃下肚子会怎样等。把我对零食的的看法都改变了！

    参观完了第一间（高中的）我和梅就去第二间化学室（初中的）去。第一组present的project就是利用不同种类的孝母菌弄出来的面团会是怎样的，还有显微镜看它的小微粒子呢。接下来，在盐加白醋的液体里放一颗蛋，那颗蛋是浮着的；而开水里的蛋是沉的呢！这里有两组都做火山试验哦！可是我只看到一组的罢了，就是水彩加苏打粉倒入火山口再加上白醋，因化学反应就产生很多的泡沫出来了，很成功哦！旁边那桌就是用显微镜看头发的细度和发上是否有油或灰尘，我用了我自己的头发试试看，结果很出奇的，我的头发既然又干净又健康也！！开心死了啦！>< 下一个呢就是利用甘蔗汁煮出来的糖，还有其他的糖类哦！我还真是第一次看过麦芽糖呢！那组的负责人（学长）既然请我品尝麦芽糖呢！还给我和梅一人一颗冰糖吃！甜食让我觉得好幸福哦！

    就这样啦，还有几组的实验我不太清楚是做啥的所以没写下咯~唉~好后悔没带相机去哦！不然就可以下载些照片了=]

我家毛

刚回到家就看到毛--我家猫在睡觉，它的睡姿很。。。。哈！

换Van了！

Bus阿姨终于换Van了！:D 比之前的豪华很多了~~空间很大~~

终于！

终于啊！我的部落格有更新了！好像很久没开了咯~差不多要一个月了我才更新*不好意思〉〈

第一次学跳舞

一直期待的星期4终于到来了！又紧张又兴奋啊！放学后就等梅从宿舍里出来，然后就去等权的车去权家。Spiky -- 权家的西施，好"热情"噢！是女生就不放过啊！然后我就去权姐姐的房间换衣，梅陪我。权洗澡。之后我去洗个头，权的洗发露很棒也！用后我的头发很"开心"噢！Then 我们就出门了。因为要找那间理发店一直打圈圈 xD 可是找到时没迟到啦~原来在理发店里教舞蹈咧！Gano还是那老样子啊~~只是发型换了~
刚开始是热身咯~but热完身就手脚发软了=.=" 事实证明我太久没运动了！学跳舞起初真的觉得很难，单单是basic就要练得半死了！但是之后还很不错啦~steps有点难记咯。。动作还要快咧！可是还蛮开心的~一直笑 XD

排球比赛

才知道排球比赛是在下星期2！！！怎么办？？？太突然了啦……怪不得他们男生突然要练排球~那天是在旁晚4.40pm开始，对J2F吧……好紧张啊！！！

freedom

mayb its time to let go and just move on?
i don't know but
i think if i kept doing this
it be just a waste of time?
mayb?
but i still can't let u go...
only time will tell...
and now i'll just kept doing what i love and just be myself
freedom...cool =]

嗯。。我输了

今天的比赛输掉了……还有负赛啊……加强练就可以了。。
因为我很弱，还吐了一点……
要苦练了，不能输掉！！
pepsi厉害咯。。跌倒躺着还能继续打。。。佩服
怪不得他会喜欢她啦。。她酱厉害，人又好。。
也不能怪啦。。我酱noob
这次的比赛。。她一定在他心中加了很高的分数。。。
而我呢？输了拉。。。还脚受伤

可以不要恨我吗？

可以不要恨我吗？我知道我哪里做错了，我会改的……
可以不要恨我吗？我会因为你这样而分心……
可以不要恨我吗？我真的很难过……
可以不要恨我吗？我不想看着你的背影，一直自责……
可以不要恨我吗？你的离开已经很难受了，再加上你的恨，我会很自卑……
可以不要恨我吗？我可以改变的。。只要你不恨我就好……
可以不要恨我吗？你看我的眼神有着痛和恨……
可以不要恨我吗？我发誓这辈子只要你一个，其他的我都不要……
可以不要恨我吗？因为在我眼中，你永远是最帅的……
可以不要恨我吗？还有下次的话，我不会像之前酱粘你了，我会给你空间的……
可以不要恨我吗？我可以再成熟一点的……
…………所以，可以不要恨我吗？

希望

希望明天下午不会下雨，
希望明天下午不会太晒，
希望明天下午会是阴天，
希望明天下午会很顺利！！！！

its so cold..

its so cold after raining...
i hate it when it rains at night...its cold
both my hands and feet are as cold as corpse...
i hate this...
it made me think of you...
that you tried to warm my hands up with yours wrapped around mine...
my feet with yours...
your hands and feet are so huge and warm...
you are always there when i had family issues...
you are always there to care for me...to cheer me up...
but now ur gone...and i felt cold....
i can't seem to warm them up like you did last time...
i wanted to hold you again...to take the fear way from me...
to make me feel like i'm safe...like some one still wants me...
that i'm not alone...that i have you....
but now ur gone...
now i'm alone...
and i'm almost lost all inside...
i hated to cry...

Want ..

I wanted to smile a wide smile in front of you again,
I wanted to hold you again,
I wanted to touch you again,
I wanted to look into your eyes again,
I wanted you to hold me in your arms again,
smile that crooked smile that i loved so much again at me,
tell me that you love me again,
hang out with you in your study room again,
just sitting beside you and stare at you...day dreaming with you again,
i missed you....so much...so much that i can't bare it...
everyday...but i'd just be looking at your back...

Say Goodbye

"There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know....."

After listening to Christ Brown's say goodbye...
I'd cry...cuz it hurts....badly
Hurt that u'd told me goodbye...n now u've even hated me...
I don't want...you to hate me

do you...?

do you still remember last year?that day?when my right arm was covered with redish pink scratch marks?
i made those marks myself actually....cuz that morning your angry at me...
you wont reply me when i called you....cuz i didnt do anything when you tell me that im wrong in something...actually i know im wrong when i looked down...i know....im wrong...n im sorry for that
every time i stick to you..u'd push me away...and that hurts me...so i...made a mark each time...
i know its stupid...to injured myself like this...but i cant....cant stand that ur mad at me....cuz of my stubborn attitude...

remembered

i remembered again...
that afternoon...
that heavy rain...
at the basketball court.....

回想……

伤心,心痛,无助时……
我会想到你……
想到你会对我说……
“不要伤心了，来，笑一个……”
我就会笑得很假……
你就会接着说……
“你笑得很假，笑开心一点”
这时你会对我笑一个……
当我想到这里时……
我的眼泪就会……流下来

everything

it seems like everything bout me is slowly n painfully crushed into peaces but you're still standing strong...

quote 4

loving a person,is to love the whole him/her

memories

i'd guess....
that your looking at her...not me...
that you hate me..not worrying bout me..
i just can't get you off of my mind...
i'm useless...i hate myself for keep thinking...
that you might be watching me...
that you might be just worrying bout me...
that you still have a feeling for me...
i've missed you so much...
i wanted to talk to you again..
i wanted to get hugged by you again..
i wanted to kiss you again...
i wanted to just go to your house and just look at you again...
i've missed every thing bout you..
memories....of 1 year 4 months...with you around..

i'm just me...

seeing you...made me feel like im useless..
because your taller than me..
because your beautifuler than me...
because your nicer than me...
because you...have the ability to take him away from me....
you made me feel like im nothing...
that im not good enough...
i am ugly..
i am dumb...
i'm not smart..
i have some IQ...
but i don't have much EQ like you have...
i am short...
but i'm me...
i can grow taller but i'll still be the same...
i'd still me the same old me...
i can't change...

quote 3

some things are worth to fight for,but not anything is worth to die for.

quote 2

Think wisely before you act, thats what my dad told me

quote

One could like many but would only love one.

time will heal

they say time will heal everything...
they say i'll pass this unbearable pain soon....
they say i'll forget our past when time past...
they say i'll get over you after some time...
they say time is my antidote...
maybe they're right?
or maybe they're wrong?
i might look strong....
i might look tough...
but you wont know...
that i get shaky and nervous when i see you,
that i blushed when you touch my face,
that my heart stopped beating 1 sec when you looked at me,
that i stay up late almost every night...cuz of the dreams i kept having...
that my heart hurts so much and it'd stopped hurting already...
that i've cried so much that i'm almost out of tears...
that i'd wished every night for you to be happy before i went to bed...
and yet...you'll never knew
maybe time Will heal my heart..
it Will...
but the wound on my heart WILL pop open when i see you...
thats what will never change...

Move on

It's time to move on...
I kept telling myself...
but i cant seem to walk away from the past...
stuck in it...
drowned in it..
memories flashing back and forth....
your face...your smile...
your eyes...your lips...
the look when your asleep...
your breath...your voice...
your everything...
stuck on my mind...
it's so painful to see you walk away,not looking back...
it hurts so much to see you smile so angel like,bright with your teeth shown out...
wanted to cry but i told myself that i can't...
i needed to smile out ever so happy though i'm hurt so within me...
smile brightly in front of the others...
then tear when im alone..

crushed

so crushed up in my own thought...
so crushed up in my own feelings...
I've lost so much since then...
I've lost my way,
lost my own self,
lost my feelings,
lost my heart,
lost everything that mean so much to me....
I've been useless to everything...
not myself anymore...
trying so hard to find an exit to this...
sorrow...
washed away everything...
anger and hatred....
surrounding everywhere...
but i can't....
can't hate anyone but myself...
cuz i'm the one who's not perfect...
i'm clumsy...
not knowing bout your feelings...
not knowing that your stressful...
not giving you enough time to yourself...to heal

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