嗯。。我输了

今天的比赛输掉了……还有负赛啊……加强练就可以了。。
因为我很弱，还吐了一点……
要苦练了，不能输掉！！
pepsi厉害咯。。跌倒躺着还能继续打。。。佩服
怪不得他会喜欢她啦。。她酱厉害，人又好。。
也不能怪啦。。我酱noob
这次的比赛。。她一定在他心中加了很高的分数。。。
而我呢？输了拉。。。还脚受伤

可以不要恨我吗？

可以不要恨我吗？我知道我哪里做错了，我会改的……
可以不要恨我吗？我会因为你这样而分心……
可以不要恨我吗？我真的很难过……
可以不要恨我吗？我不想看着你的背影，一直自责……
可以不要恨我吗？你的离开已经很难受了，再加上你的恨，我会很自卑……
可以不要恨我吗？我可以改变的。。只要你不恨我就好……
可以不要恨我吗？你看我的眼神有着痛和恨……
可以不要恨我吗？我发誓这辈子只要你一个，其他的我都不要……
可以不要恨我吗？因为在我眼中，你永远是最帅的……
可以不要恨我吗？还有下次的话，我不会像之前酱粘你了，我会给你空间的……
可以不要恨我吗？我可以再成熟一点的……
…………所以，可以不要恨我吗？

希望

希望明天下午不会下雨，
希望明天下午不会太晒，
希望明天下午会是阴天，
希望明天下午会很顺利！！！！

its so cold..

its so cold after raining...
i hate it when it rains at night...its cold
both my hands and feet are as cold as corpse...
i hate this...
it made me think of you...
that you tried to warm my hands up with yours wrapped around mine...
my feet with yours...
your hands and feet are so huge and warm...
you are always there when i had family issues...
you are always there to care for me...to cheer me up...
but now ur gone...and i felt cold....
i can't seem to warm them up like you did last time...
i wanted to hold you again...to take the fear way from me...
to make me feel like i'm safe...like some one still wants me...
that i'm not alone...that i have you....
but now ur gone...
now i'm alone...
and i'm almost lost all inside...
i hated to cry...

Want ..

I wanted to smile a wide smile in front of you again,
I wanted to hold you again,
I wanted to touch you again,
I wanted to look into your eyes again,
I wanted you to hold me in your arms again,
smile that crooked smile that i loved so much again at me,
tell me that you love me again,
hang out with you in your study room again,
just sitting beside you and stare at you...day dreaming with you again,
i missed you....so much...so much that i can't bare it...
everyday...but i'd just be looking at your back...

Say Goodbye

"There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know....."

After listening to Christ Brown's say goodbye...
I'd cry...cuz it hurts....badly
Hurt that u'd told me goodbye...n now u've even hated me...
I don't want...you to hate me

do you...?

do you still remember last year?that day?when my right arm was covered with redish pink scratch marks?
i made those marks myself actually....cuz that morning your angry at me...
you wont reply me when i called you....cuz i didnt do anything when you tell me that im wrong in something...actually i know im wrong when i looked down...i know....im wrong...n im sorry for that
every time i stick to you..u'd push me away...and that hurts me...so i...made a mark each time...
i know its stupid...to injured myself like this...but i cant....cant stand that ur mad at me....cuz of my stubborn attitude...

remembered

i remembered again...
that afternoon...
that heavy rain...
at the basketball court.....

回想……

伤心,心痛,无助时……
我会想到你……
想到你会对我说……
“不要伤心了，来，笑一个……”
我就会笑得很假……
你就会接着说……
“你笑得很假，笑开心一点”
这时你会对我笑一个……
当我想到这里时……
我的眼泪就会……流下来

everything

it seems like everything bout me is slowly n painfully crushed into peaces but you're still standing strong...

quote 4

loving a person,is to love the whole him/her

memories

i'd guess....
that your looking at her...not me...
that you hate me..not worrying bout me..
i just can't get you off of my mind...
i'm useless...i hate myself for keep thinking...
that you might be watching me...
that you might be just worrying bout me...
that you still have a feeling for me...
i've missed you so much...
i wanted to talk to you again..
i wanted to get hugged by you again..
i wanted to kiss you again...
i wanted to just go to your house and just look at you again...
i've missed every thing bout you..
memories....of 1 year 4 months...with you around..

i'm just me...

seeing you...made me feel like im useless..
because your taller than me..
because your beautifuler than me...
because your nicer than me...
because you...have the ability to take him away from me....
you made me feel like im nothing...
that im not good enough...
i am ugly..
i am dumb...
i'm not smart..
i have some IQ...
but i don't have much EQ like you have...
i am short...
but i'm me...
i can grow taller but i'll still be the same...
i'd still me the same old me...
i can't change...

quote 3

some things are worth to fight for,but not anything is worth to die for.

quote 2

Think wisely before you act, thats what my dad told me

quote

One could like many but would only love one.

time will heal

they say time will heal everything...
they say i'll pass this unbearable pain soon....
they say i'll forget our past when time past...
they say i'll get over you after some time...
they say time is my antidote...
maybe they're right?
or maybe they're wrong?
i might look strong....
i might look tough...
but you wont know...
that i get shaky and nervous when i see you,
that i blushed when you touch my face,
that my heart stopped beating 1 sec when you looked at me,
that i stay up late almost every night...cuz of the dreams i kept having...
that my heart hurts so much and it'd stopped hurting already...
that i've cried so much that i'm almost out of tears...
that i'd wished every night for you to be happy before i went to bed...
and yet...you'll never knew
maybe time Will heal my heart..
it Will...
but the wound on my heart WILL pop open when i see you...
thats what will never change...

Move on

It's time to move on...
I kept telling myself...
but i cant seem to walk away from the past...
stuck in it...
drowned in it..
memories flashing back and forth....
your face...your smile...
your eyes...your lips...
the look when your asleep...
your breath...your voice...
your everything...
stuck on my mind...
it's so painful to see you walk away,not looking back...
it hurts so much to see you smile so angel like,bright with your teeth shown out...
wanted to cry but i told myself that i can't...
i needed to smile out ever so happy though i'm hurt so within me...
smile brightly in front of the others...
then tear when im alone..

crushed

so crushed up in my own thought...
so crushed up in my own feelings...
I've lost so much since then...
I've lost my way,
lost my own self,
lost my feelings,
lost my heart,
lost everything that mean so much to me....
I've been useless to everything...
not myself anymore...
trying so hard to find an exit to this...
sorrow...
washed away everything...
anger and hatred....
surrounding everywhere...
but i can't....
can't hate anyone but myself...
cuz i'm the one who's not perfect...
i'm clumsy...
not knowing bout your feelings...
not knowing that your stressful...
not giving you enough time to yourself...to heal

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